I haven't posted for a while. It has been a bad month. The sleep situation sucks, the destructive behaviors are in full force every waking minute (and since sleep is rare, that is a lot of destruction), and we are all feeling frayed.
We switched to a new neurologist in the hope the he may have new suggestions. So far it is not promising.
The good news is that I secured some additional services for Sam through the health insurance so we get a couple of hours of respite on the weekend while Sam is at some special needs classes. I use it to try to do normal kid stuff with Maya like arts and crafts that she can't do with Sam at home.
I honestly don't know if I could feel like a crappier parent these days. The horrible angry vemon that spews from my mouth when Sam smashes something in the kitchen or rips up another book is terrible. I have lost all self control in that area. Between the nursing baby and Sam's night time fits I have not had more than an hour or two of uninterupted sleep in months and usually I am awake from about 1 or 2 am on due to all the wake-ups. My hair is falling out and my eczema is consuming my hands. I am very angry at myself for not being able to maintain a little more composure.
I have had many ideas for posts but I have been too tired or pissed off to concentrate and write them.